:( how come? you never added me to msn :(
I have you on MSN
hey what happened to your twitter?
I deleted it. I don’t wanna go back this time either.
In New York for a week, I wish I can stay but I can’t.
I think my biggest struggle is following my heart. I keep forgetting that sometimes my heart would take me to places I shouldn’t be. Places that had me fucked up when it seems good, some are good when it’s bad and some are dangerous as they are alluring. My heart isn’t gonna take me to places that lead to happy ending like I used to wish for. It’s not even the hard part, the hard part is when I follow my heart, I leave normal. I go into the unknown and I do I can never go back.
I’m just over a lot of things now.
It’s like if I lose a friend, it wouldn’t hurt me anymore. As cold as it sounds, I’m done trying to change myself to make people happy. I can’t ever change me, only time can. I have to stop having high hopes in people, I can’t even be mad at the people who hurt me anymore. I’m done caring about people and things that just aren’t gonna work out for me. I’m on my own and whatever comes my way, I’ll only rely on me to deal with it. This isn’t a rant or anything. I just don’t care too much about fixing things anymore. If I did something, I’ll admit and apologize to it.
Sometimes I wish I can get some honesty. If you don’t want me around, just simply tell me that so I can go. No harm done, But people still walk on egg shells. I just really don’t care anymore.